goodnight..

i cannot be

with you tonight

as in the past, when

the moon bore witness

to a pallid sky

turned bright by the song

we told

to play, as our souls danced

in melodies whispered

by a gentle night

breeze, choosing to stay

with us

i cannot see

your half slumbered dreams

as the sun rises

tomorrow

send you chills of the dawn's

last giggles

that laid you to sleep

in bliss

of knowing we had

us, to stay

but i shall not be far

i choose to fly your sky

tonight

and scatter dews

on a lush forest

that will embrace your soul

tomorrow

as you walk the path

towards a promise

we made

not so long ago

rest now

with the unfailing warmth

of faith, that days were not wasted

that nights were not spent

on wanton frills

before the next twilight

you shall find

me, and that promise

held gently

by cloud we have named

ours

completeness

i look for you friend

in the last drop of water

from my glass

in the last bubble of wine

that kept my spirit up

in the first leaf that falls

on a spring about to end

in the first dew of winter

that comes un-announced

in the first ray of sun

that knocks

on my dawn, yesterday

today and maybe...

until the last minute

of tomorrow

that i may be

complete, before i go

as you know

you are

that light that completes

this soul

rambling... :P

i try to find

the words to describe

who you are in my life

but none would come

i just know you're there

and i wont have

it any other way

i try to search

the night when we met

was it a nod that started it?

or that curious smile you got

why we stayed

was it? for warmth

or did we just both refuse

to leave?

i know i can

try and fail over

and over again, to find

the answers, but

tonight

when i close my eyes

i shall rest, because tomorrow

when i wake

nothing will change

we shall remain...

same day tomorrow..

some day, the supple lips i kissed

will have melted a lot

of smiles that drowned

the cries in that day

we said goodbye

some day, the curls of your hair

would have wound with

the wind that brushes

memories away

from yesterday, that which

may be forgotten

some day, the sun may not rise

at the same time we have

watched it set, along with

the morrows that will have to wait

when goodbyes end

some day, everything else

we've been at, we have had

will change, will age

...may die

but on that same day

some day...

you will find me here

waiting, for us

to happen again

between the gaps

funny how we sit here together

both with untouched

muffins on our plate

remember when we bid goodbye?

it was a long time ago

you had to have cream and sugar

on your coffee, while i

had to have mine black and strong

has anyone offered you tea?

oh! i tried that...once

once was enough

and now we both know

what yogurt tastes like, they say

its good for the stomach

i wonder what's good for the soul

have you found out?

we'll both have to head back

soon, for lunch, yours at least

i often skip mine

do call when you're around

maybe we'll have brownies

next time

create me anew before you go...

after you're done loving me

tonight, let me stay awhile

and watch you hold

your canvas, as you

create a new me

moisten your paint brush

with the blue tears

i have saved, over the years

that gave my darkness

a lighter hue

choose the color you wake

up to, each morning

make it

the color of my aging skin

let your brush strokes erase

the hurt print of yesteryears

and draw veins

for hopeful breaths anew

give me a shade

of all the colors you lived

...your playful youth that teased

life, and squandered twilights

...the man you were

who loved, both your woman

and a dream they called lie

...the wisdom etched

with smiles and frowns

...the wait you now make

of the grandest dawn

that shall free your soul

of all the things that cannot be

when you're done painting me

tonight, i shall leave

but it will be as if

...i never left