one last time

when she looked me in the eyes, one last time
she asked
for everything that was mine
love, forgiveness, apathy!
to forget and remember
to move on after
but first, to let her go
she expected, all these
i could give in one breath
because she wont wait
she just cant

we both knew she had to leave
my wristwatch has stopped
to mark the time, hers
her final flight

and i gave
all that she asked for
years of strength,
obscured fears,
unwavering faith
and a life

keeping only the tears i saved
for her, with her
i cried, the day she left
...one last time

to stay...

push me in and lock the door
dont ever let me out again
cause i've been in this room before
but i never stayed long, never
trusting the walls to hold, i push
out, and leave

finding only strangers' invite
to rooms with no roof
or a bed full, i make love
on the floor, 'till a knock comes
until it's time to throw
the garbage out

push me in and lock the door
throw the keys away and
make me stay through the seasons
let the days die on me
here, never in the cold