my tree of life

in this moment between

the past and my twilight

i come

by your side, wrapped

in my shawl

that wards off the cold

that the night left

behind

i watch your aging roots

now so deep into the ground

held strong by all the seasons

that passed, some veins died

but still many have lived

to wait for new rains to heal

wounds that bled

once

leaning on your body

i feel your life, rhythmically

flowing as each second ticks

away from what is never forgotten

yet finding harmony

with the color of an ancient love

in hopeful throbs

of what's yet to

find

the wind ruffles your leaves

and tells your story

the rise and fall

of tides you witnessed, blaring

desperate thunders

across the sea, i heard the whisper

resolute faith holds you

calm

let me cling to you

on your branches, with your skin

etched with the beauty

of teeming wisdom

slightly parched and fragile

but glows with warmth

of the timid sun rise, now slowly

peeking thru the sleepy clouds

i shall stay

with you until the next setting sun

until the last dew is blown

off our lives to nourish

a new born soil

from the remnants

of the days we shared

together in the last chapter

of our lives

watch the stars for me

we had been

silly

sitting on the roof, waiting

for a star to fall on us

arms widespread

to catch it

we invented songs

lovers will not dare sing

as time passed

cursed

each cloud that broke

a lucky star's fall

today i woke

my foot soles blistered

the last trip to the roof

left sun rays that

still burnt

i cant meet you there

tonight

nor on other nights

as i have to run

after a life that has

waited long enough

for me to live

keep my wishes

in your pocket, then

keep going back

remember me when you laugh

at another lonely star

stubbornly flaunting

its glow

think of me

every night while you wait

watch them as we did

pretend

im there beside you

remember how

...i never left

the world thru my eyes

once

you asked

if i have seen the world

and what its like

it took some time

for an answer to come

if your world is also mine...

i flew the skies and found clouds aren't soft

that beyond them are not rainbows but

tears that wait for the rain

to paint them blue or run them dry

years i spent climbing that mountain

for that promised land papa talked about

and there found smog, filth and slaves

that their masters left behind

i dove unto the heart of an ocean

and found there too dead corals lie

i've seen some fish feed on their young

because the sun killed the moss last night

i bathed free along the shore for a day

and three nights, bare skin that made

love with its sand, drifting along the debris

that the waves brought and took, as mine

the sun doesn't rise nor set my child

it doesn't melt on a placid lake as we believed

it watches us day and night, amused

of the foolish dreams we make

the stars did not shine for you nor for me

they have their own reason to be

they light our path, true perhaps, remember tho

they shall pass in their time, not ours, not us

i have written a hundred poems

of love, of hope, of dreams

I spat bitter songs of trust and betrayals

I have played with words so many times

not once knowing the stake was I

grey hairs have started to grow

papa says i'm not as pretty no more

the lines you see on my face now

are those i bought from a carefree youth

hear my laughter it is not as loud

they tell my story, mostly those untold

of the many pages my life explored

a few good ones to storm will hold

on nights when i feel brave enough to cry

the tears i shed are not of pain

but remembrances of all i have

missed and kept and loved and failed

dare not shake my hand, i have brittle bones

now, battles that left me frail and weak

are same walls that hold me up

eager and waiting for what's yet to come

tomorrow i shall tell you what world is like

let me rest tonight, let me close my eyes

allow me to..

live that life anew that you remind me of

wake up to a dream i'd like to tell you about

......

let me buy you a mountain where you can grow

your words, swim in its rains and dance

between the thousand colors of the rainbow

that towers above your faith, reliving dreams forgot

then you can follow the stream which stole

your rhymes in the middle of the night and left

nothing but a dead star that pleads for light

a breath shared twice in fleeting seconds of life

and then i will paint you a brand new sky

where there will be pearls and dew drops

and a thousand doves flying in sweet surrender

with simple joy to the warmth of your twilight

and then you can close your eyes and live anew

feel the touch of soft breezes on your skin

hear the chirping birds that play in your heart

humming your song from a vague memory..

nothing said..

hey

how are you?

im fine..surprised to see you...how are you?

im alright. your hair looks shorter.

no, they're just tied. some things better that way, right?

ah, you haven't changed. you still speak in riddles.

and have you started answering some?

no, i never understood them.

yes, i know, im sorry, i didnt mean that quip.

dont mention, you're right. how are your poems?

ah, i have written a hundred so far. some good, some bad.

can i read them, im sure they're beautiful.

you say that when you dont read suspiscious comments

haha well, yeah, can you blame me?

no, i never once did. so, how is your life?

just fine, there had been ups and downs.

hmmmm...

you know thats the first time you said hmmm

yes, i have learned not to say that all too often

some things do change after all?

when necessary yes, so what's going on?

going on where? nothing much here

in your head, i think i can still tell when you're thinking some

as you know, i was lost, but im still here, now.

was there ever gonna be an end you think?

not on my side, was there for you?

i was convinced there was, it's been a year you know?

yes, i know, if i were you, i will not talk to me...

but you know me better, right?

hmmmm...

your turn to say that...

yes, you still leave me speechless.

funny how you say that...

hey, got a call, i gotta go...

i know

i will see you

(when? - un-asked) alright..

(another call) i will see you..

(a nod)

off he ran towards his wife...

won't you..

i know when

you return, i will leave

the quilt i have been trying to make

for years, for myself, when cold nights come

and you will not be by my side

i know when

you speak, i will forget

all the things i heard you not say

and will refuse to hear my own words

as my heart is deaf when to you it listens

i know when

you hold my hand, yesterday will vanish

and tomorrows will not matter, as that day

you are with me will be the start and end

of everything, of my life, of my dream

i shall be on my knees, from now till it happens

i will never ask for explanations of where you've been

or look for what had failed to happen

i will never tell you of the nights when

even tears failed to drown sadness

or when i hated myself for knowing

you may never return, but still

waited and believed in that one moment

when i will wake up to see the sun

in your eyes, glowing as it never had

but

allow me to ask one thing from you

please do no make me wait again

years have passed and im not as strong

my memory fails to remember my name

please tell me now if you wont, and i

will leave my prayers for that quilt

i will need to finish it as soon as i can

before my eyes are blinded with mist again

respite

just for tonight

let me sing our song

as I hold his hand

let my heart shout

of all the love for you (some you never heard)

of how I changed

the color of my wind

from nothingness to dreams

because that's what you wanted

let me tell

of how I stopped the waves

from rolling a placid ocean

where you take your morning breath

and wash the tears

you cried on a night

that the moon forgot to shine

let me make believe

it is your hand im holding

and your heartbeat i hear

that says im loved

and longed for and wont

ever be let go of

that i matter

that..I

let me just for tonight

because tomorrow i will wake up

and find

but a shadow of my past

when you shared

that dream we both knew

will fade with sunrise

because tomorrow i will

have to tell him again

it's you i love...

then he and i will both know

we lost, both

trekking a path, an end

we'll never find