won't you..

i know when

you return, i will leave

the quilt i have been trying to make

for years, for myself, when cold nights come

and you will not be by my side

i know when

you speak, i will forget

all the things i heard you not say

and will refuse to hear my own words

as my heart is deaf when to you it listens

i know when

you hold my hand, yesterday will vanish

and tomorrows will not matter, as that day

you are with me will be the start and end

of everything, of my life, of my dream

i shall be on my knees, from now till it happens

i will never ask for explanations of where you've been

or look for what had failed to happen

i will never tell you of the nights when

even tears failed to drown sadness

or when i hated myself for knowing

you may never return, but still

waited and believed in that one moment

when i will wake up to see the sun

in your eyes, glowing as it never had

but

allow me to ask one thing from you

please do no make me wait again

years have passed and im not as strong

my memory fails to remember my name

please tell me now if you wont, and i

will leave my prayers for that quilt

i will need to finish it as soon as i can

before my eyes are blinded with mist again