let me be, tonight..

i shall try to be brave tonight and speak
of words piercing thru my heart
and thoughts that mercilessly pound in my head
screaming for a way out, both
begging to be heard

let me talk about pain, and cuts and bruises
as the clouds have tired of dancing for my words
let the wounds shed blood, to wash away the shards
of blinding lies and numbing indifference

allow me a wail, strong and sharp, but once
because i hurt! because im free to tell you, i am
as the sun i enslaved, so many of them, in my poems
the oceans i refused, refuted waves and meanings

let me show courage, tonight, and watch me
face my past with anger and lament, and then perhaps
forgiveness..after all, there shall be silence..sweet, caressing
silence, in a void where only fear stood, rules

i shall try to be brave tonight, and cry
let my pure saline tears wash a battered twilight
for the losses i have failed to keep, and the dewdrops
i allowed to dry, for the morrows i yearn to see
let me be, if only for the last...let me be, tonight