a prayer

may i be blessed
today
and everyday until i find
what is it
i search

yes, let me feel!
pain...awaken my senses
the slumber of stoic numbness
calloused indifference
hardened the shell
around this heart
that once knew how it was...
let me
feel

yes let me know!
death
that i may celebrate life
loved ones who passed
and those that still live
that what i have
wasted....almost
lost...lived
remains

yes let let there be
loss...
that i may rejoice
in meager existence
a poor man's treasure tho
mocked
titles unsworn, forgotten?
ahh, they were never there
never

yes, let there be lies...
that the truth maybe spoken
in staggering fight
a will that falters
that it shimmers thru
pretentious darkness
unfree deceptions...
let truth be seen

yes,let me lose sight
if need be
that i may see what others fail
in crevices of that soul
taken for granted
eluded for the stabbing pain
it causes
to face one's truth
unveiled

yes,let there be darkness!
leave me in its midst
that i may suffocate in void
misplaced pride...masked
solitude
.
.
.
that may i reach for, this once
that flickering light
my lone star has shone
itself in struggle
to make its existence known

all these i ask...
today and everyday
until i find
that which
I
search for...