was me after all

i heard him
once
whisper to you
i love you
and i heard you say
you loved him
too

hearing you both
made me feel
so proud
i was here
because of you
because you loved

one day i felt a gush
you were crying
you were so mad
i heard you
shouting
"i had enough!"
"crazy little bastard
...i had enough!"

i knew it was him
that caused this anguish
cheating on you
once too much

one day
in my sleep
i heard a crash

it was you
you fell on your knees
sprawled on the floor
i heard you cry
you were in pain
what can i do?
i was still inside of you

then there was silence
and darkness

whats going on?
the fluid that kept me warm
suddenly
turned cold
i feel my little body quiver
my skins shrivelling
whats happening?

i am in pain...

i kicked with all my might
to let you know
i couldn't breathe
inhale some air!
that i can take from you...
hear me please
i need you to!

cling-clang, cling-clang
what were those?
no, not the fan
i know how that sounds
is it a sound
from what you watch
while you wait for him
if he'll come back?

what are all these
strange feelings?
im dizzy, want to sleep
but my mind!
my mind wont rest...
i want to run
to escape far
far away
but my body...
my body, why cant i move?

cling-clang
i saw something flicker...
from that little hole
where i would pass
when i'm fully grown

did you send it to save me?
to let air pass thru my lungs again?
to make my heart
beat
normal again?
to make my body
move again?
to unshrivel my skin?
to wash away my fear?
is it my savior
oh! God, i thank you so!

i reached for it
madly so
i want to hurry
let it find me
save me
now
i am in pain

you laid there still and quiet
and i laid on some platter
dried out
cut into pieces
drenched with what little blood
i had
robbed of what little life i had

"that little bastard"
was me
after all
you loved
i was conceived
i was so proud!

that little bastard!
was me after all